Bucket List

As an eventful evening with the Young family wound down tonight we opted to watch 'The Bucket List'.  I have never seen the movie although I had prepared, and failed, a College Life Bucket List.  I have always felt that I have this foresight that is not granted to many people of my age.  I have always planned, goal-set, striven, accomplished, evaluated, revised and repeated.  While growing up my actions were always guided by how any decision fit into my goals.  As the oldest brother I also felt compelled to be a good role model.  Not to say I never made a poor choice, but I avoided some decisions that I feel most teens and collegiates make as part of the process of growing up.  However, in doing this I feel it has deprived my life of a certain spontaneity and inserted some sense of self consciousness I did not like.   Hence the abrupt change I have undertook the past few years. 
   I, myself do not have a tangible Bucket List.  My Bucket List is in the form of my adoption of a new self awareness.  I want my life to be an adventure. I like to think of my life as a story and I, as the author, hold the responsibility of writing a quality story.  I have always despised the average, the mediocre, and plain. I would rather undergo a epic disastrous failure of a day then to sit back and look at the day without having a story to tell.  I want to be able to sit down as the old man at the bar and tell some young fella about the days I spent playing baseball in Australia with Tom Brice and Quincy Latimore or maybe the time I vanished into Brazil, or maybe its something less monumental. Maybe its telling that same young man the story of when, due to of a misplaced wallet and a flat innertube, a friend and I found ourselves hitch hiking with one shoe and a wet satchel filled with empty beer on a windy road between no-where and who-knows-where. 
      The point is I don't have a scribed list, nor do I want one, telling me I wanted to do this specific thing.  My list consists of this one thing; I never want to miss out on my life and never do I want to look back and think, "Those were the days". In my opinion when a person feels the best days are behind them,they stop living and simply settle for an existence.